A Better Day

I had a better day keeping on tract.

Not Doing Very Good in Resent Days

I haven’t done all that well in changing my awful habits when it comes to health or anything else. Recently I can’t get focus and my mind tends to wonder. So much noise up in my noggin. Confession time..a little to much for me.
My panic attacks seems to be returning more frequent and more intense. But I have to say they aren’t as bad as they were.
At this time I’m taking 50 mg of Zoloft and I’ve been wondering if I should talk to my doctor and see if I need to increase it or not.
I need to go in for physical which I should of done end of August or first part of September but I’m going to make an appointment after 5th of October. I want to wait and see if my panic attacks lessen, increase or stay the same

One of my reward was as soon as I lost in five areas. I was going to get something off of e-bay. Today on my other world stage I did my Thursday thirteen # 8 from e-bay.
The last few days changing and breaking my habits been a rough on me

Confession time...The only exercise I got this week so far I and our dog “Butch” went for a short walk”

Gram Cracker with icing

I said I would eat anything after dinner except plain popcorn. Confession time...I had a half of a gram cracker with choclate icing on it But I had no more.

Some Pazza Here Please

I want to add a little pazza to this blogg and I thought something with apples would be good on this blogg. I haven't yet found what I'm looking for.
I don't know where there very many blogg of people who is trying to reduce.
I found two bloggs to link from my side bar. shrinking ladies and Angry fat girlz

After Dinner Pig Out

After dinner I don’t eat and if I do it’s plain popcorn and I messed up. I have some left over pie dough and I don’t like to waste anything.
So I rolled it out and add butter, brown sugar and cinnamon and ate a large portion of it.
Oh I thought I had the night time pig out resolved. Well I fell off the wagon.
Did a short work out at curves. I had to take my car in to get a brake job done. I thought it would be around $50 bucks. Well it cost us $107.
After I drop my car off at shop I walked to work and after work I walked over and got it.

walked

Butch our dog and I went for a walk, we put in a little over a mile in. Some of the leaves are turning colors and their was a nice breeze so I got to listen to the leaves crinkle in the breeze.

I Was Thrown For a Loop

Went to work later in the day. So as old saying goes "make hay while the sun shine" This is far from what I did.
I usual start work at 9 in morning and before that I try to get a least 4 things done it sure didn't happen today.

A Workout Not going to the Gym

I real got a work out this weekend

Friday I help my friend Alice move into her new home.
Alice son Frank and I was caring an item off the steps and somehow I missed the last step and I twisted my right ankle which swelled up a little. As I went down the stuff sort of fell on me but I have to say Frank did hold the item off me pretty well. and I fell not very hard against her van.

Sunday our whole family moved the ceramic molds off one set of the shelves in the basement. part of them went out to the barn/storage and the other part went in corner of the basement. I'd guess we move 400 to 500 molds.
Now we need to tear down the shelves and build more out in the barn/storage. The molds never bothered me in moving. For some reason they where 6 by 4 inch bricks that we also packed out of the basement. They felt heavy.
We slide the wood stove out of the way too

Oh Give Me a Heartey Breakfast

Breakfast never been a hard meal for me. But the hardest part is what to eat.
I been told go heavy on the protein so you can have all sort of energy. Then your told to eat whole grains. I never had it explain why someone may want to do the whole grain thing for breakfast.
So what is dieter to do?
This morning I ate one egg over easy, 3 piece of link pork sausage and hash brown potatoes. Cover the protein well but I need to say “with a lot of fat calories”

September numbers

I has debating with my self about getting weighed at curves and measured. Well I lost a pound and I lost an inch around my waist.
I decide when I each time I have a lost in 5 areas I’m going to buy something off of ebay. Confession time...I reward my self with food This is something I need to work on. Next time I’ll be measured mid October.

Bust 46 inches, waist 40 inches,(last week it was 41 inches, abdomen 45 inches, hips 47 inches, arms 14 inches, weight 201, and % of body fat 43.10%

My New Blue Necklace

Every 15th workout I do at curves I buy my self a piece of jewelry and today marked my 15th work out and I bought a blue and gold neckless. So when I make the 115 workout at curves I’ll get anther piece of jewelry.

I’m thinking of doing some type of self award when I walk. I know I don’t want to do the jewelry thing. I’ll figure it out something out.
I just don’t want reward my self with food.

What a Fine

I was over at shrinking ladies and I’d like to find some bloggs of ordinary every day people who is trying to change their life and become more heathier.
Well these two ladies have a link to fat fighter blogs which yet I looked threw it a little bit. And later on today if I find the time I’ll look and read few bloggs.

when I was young

Today Murphy and I got an old trunk open which I've lost the keys for coons ages. Well I found and old picture of me when I was in my early 20's.
I was a lot thinner then.
confession time...I party a lot back then and did all sorts of drugs. I had all sort of men wanting my body for sex and nothing more.
Some men are dogs. Yes I'd like to be skinner but I have no desire to go threw emotional bullshit when I was young

Two things I do and I need to get under control is that I eat to much and I spend way to much time on the computer.
I never one was to express feeling. If I even have a good gripe about something or a complaint I feel guilty of complain about anything.
So I find blogging one way to express my self on what ever.
I'm trying to limted my self to the computer two and half hours during the weekday and on the days I work no computer time.
Yesterday was my first time limting my use of the computer. Well I did pretty well for the first day. I went over by about 15 minutes.

My new goal was to spend less time on the computer. I have 30 minute left today to be on the computer.
Being on the computer does not burn much calorie.
Oh this is hard.

Eating isn't the only habit I need to curtail.
I spend way to much time on the computer and blogging. On week days no more the two and half hours.
On the days I go to work I could complete 4 task around the house. This is what I do is go down stairs and get on computer.
So the days I work I won't be getting on the computer.

This morning Butch and I went for a walk. Around trip just under a mile.

It so hard to try to change one habits. I still have some pretty bad habits like not emough exersise, protion control, and eating when I'm not real hungry.
dieting is "boring",